I leave tomorrow for Tennessee to visit my paternal relatives who I haven’t seen since I was 5 (a couple months short of 30 years). I guess so far the weird part is that I don’t feel much of anything. I sit, still within myself, in the silence, and I can honestly say I have no real expectations, or even any major emotions around it all. I suppose when I return on Monday I will have an abundance of feelings related to the event. But really I am very calm and centered. Some of my family members are excited, apprehensive, or even nervous, but I’m not and I guess that’s o.k.

It’s happening at a good time for me really. My life, my world, and my heart are full right now. I’m comfortable and confident in/with myself. I guess if I had to sum it up, it’s like this: I’m open to new people and new blessings, but nothing and no one can take the great gifts I already have, so I have nothing to lose. At the most I think I can say it will be interesting.

And if there is one thing true about me, I’ve always loved an adventure.