Wed 28 Jul 2004
Sometimes I feel like a professional failure. Recently I’ve been doing a job merely because I can be successful at it, and it pays the bills. But I guess I’m spoiled by the notion that a job should be more than just a paycheck. Don’t get me wrong, I’m fortunately gifted (or have learned how) to find the beauty/benefit in the things I do or experience. My current occupation is no different, but nonetheless, I often find it lacking in fulfillment. I imagine millions, maybe billions, of humans have gone through life facing this same sentiment. But somehow that doesn’t make it easier to experience it myself.
July 28th, 2004 at 11:03 pm
IF A DOG WERE YOUR TEACHER, You would learn stuff like…..
When loved ones come home, always run to greet them.
Never pass up the opportunity to go for a joyride.
Allow the experience of fresh air and the wind in your face to be pure ecstasy.
When it’s in your best interest — practice obedience.
Let others know when they’ve invaded your territory.
Take naps and stretch before rising.
Run, romp, and play daily.
Thrive on attention and let people touch you.
Avoid biting, when a simple growl will do.
On warm days, stop to lie on your back on the grass.
On hot days, drink lots of water and lay under a shady tree.
When you’re happy, dance around and wag your entire body.
No matter how often you’re scolded, don’t buy into the guilt thing and pout…run right back and make friends.
Delight in the simple joy of a long walk.
Eat with gusto and enthusiasm. Stop when you have had enough.
Be loyal.
Never pretend to be something you’re not.
If what you want lies buried, dig until you find it.
When someone is having a bad day, be silent, sit close by and nuzzle them gently.
~Author Unknown~
July 29th, 2004 at 10:03 am
"What’s she doing now?" This question I hear on almost a daily basis from many people. When I tell them the response is always: "She can do anything she tries. That’s one smart, hard working woman with a terrific personality and a big heart."
Maybe that has something to do with your feelings. You can do anything you try. Maybe it makes most things seem trivial.
I, also, don’tknow anything you couldn’t do if you tried at it. And, for that reason, I believe you will find the job you want because you are trying hard. It’s only a matter of time. Besides, wildermetaforce, I believe in you.
July 29th, 2004 at 3:11 pm
it’s nice that we can choose.
July 30th, 2004 at 4:02 am
hang in there. you are one of the most amazing people I have had the good fortune to meet and know that you will find a balance. miss you!